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Hellloooo my beautiful friends,
I get to work with the most masterful people at their crafts, it's been a through line for me over the years that I find to be especially important in my intimate containers. That being said some of the most masterful people I know often DON't recognize themselves as such OR they do butttt terribly sabotage themselves out of the peace, surprise, satisfaction or success they're designed for.
If that's you I want to say:
Be willing to get it wrong.
Be willing to feel awkward.
Be willing to be out of your depth.
Be willing to bet on yourself even when nobody else is.
Part of my reiki training at 18 years old was to donate my energy healing service to a man who had just become a paraplegic.
Wellllll… what my teacher didn't know is that I had a phobia of being in hospitals.
She didn't know that anytime I had to go into one, even for a happy occasion like a baby being born, my whole body would turn cold and sweaty, I'd begin to have a panic attack and cry uncontrollably.
So to prepare for the big day of donating my service in a hospital……..I began to visit cemeteries (another one of my phobias at the time).
I first began by just parking my car in a cemetery and not getting out.
Later I would awkwardly speed walk around not knowing where to step.
And then I eventually began to be sit in cemeteries.
Hearing the wind chimes blow.
Watching a widowed man unpack a lawn chair to sit by his loved one and read his book and then eat his lunch.
Another time I watched a mother leave a teddy (and bits of her soul) by a small plot.
I went day after day—sitting with the thing that made me afraid of hospitals:
the feeling of Grief.
I spent so many of my childhood years in and out of oncology wings watching my once plump and sassy grandmother, wither away.
As a child, I didn't just experience grief the day my grandmother passed—grief was building up over the years of watching her fade away. I had no words for it at the time, I just knew that hospitals were scary.
When I began sitting in cemeteries, I found myself confronting grief in small, microdoses at a time— which is easier to do when the grief isn't yours.
That was the muscle I needed to develop in order to walk into that man's hospital room—a stranger grieving the recent loss of his mobility—to offer him a small space to begin feeling his own grief.
Steep this :
I've learned that our vision takes us on a journey—a journey that exposes our weaknesses and presents challenges to help us build the skills and resilience needed to become the person we've been envisioning and journaling about.
my vision at the time was to become a healer. so my journey was to become masterful at the art of shadow work.
when my vision was to profit from my gifts, my journey was to become masterful at the art of visibility.
when my vision was to become a wife, my journey was to become masterful at learning what love really means.
what is your vision calling you to journey through?
what unknown place must you travel to?
what shadowy place do you need to sit in?
what muscle do you need to grow?
where do you need to mature?
what skill do you need to learn?
It will seldom look or feel pretty in the moment but it's necessary.
Some of you are
Outsourcing your power
Not doing what it takes to become masterful at your craft or marketing because you don't want to feel silly, uncomfortable or judged
You're not investing in your vision because you're not treating it seriously enough to make it real. Turning ideas into reality requires action and investment, not just hope.
The real tea?:
I challenge you.
I challenge you to pick something that'll create some crunch and something to work towards.
It could be:
Picking a date next month to finally sing at your local open mic (how can you become a star if you don't let people hear you?)
Launch the program you've been sitting on ( but what if nobody joins? Been there- I lived and I learned and got better for the next time)
Increase your prices (but what if nobody buys? Some won't. But there are people charging five times what you do, who are less qualified-- you can raise your prices, i promise.)
Work with your fave mentor (but it's more than i've ever spent….. welppp babe it's costing you more money to just live in your head. bringing a vision to fruition is one pathway to actually receive abundance so you don't have to worry about price tags)
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You guys I've just been lovingggg my time in London. I really do feel like my taurean body comes alive here. I love boulder but man it is soooo grounded there. sometimes too grounded for an already chill person.
part of my decision to come to london was because I needed something to fan my flame. (aries moon, sag rising). I wanted to plug into a new environment and see what wanted to be co-created through me.
So glad I listened to my body because there is so much gestating. I feel so blessed to have the opportunity to just walk around doing whatever I want every day and still getting to guide my clients.
I am EMBARRASSED to say--I have YET to have a proper afternoon tea.
GASPPPPP
ok you're right I should go tomorrow. what was i thinking!
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with love and disruption.
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